Saturday, January 14, 2017

Simonizer...

“… My day has been too long. In the morning, I saw my sons happy and strong; and yet, before the night has come, have I lived to see the Last of the Moheathens.”

I’ve struggled to find words to write Simon his blog today… While painful to write blogs for Jack, Riley and JJ, the words came easily… Not so today and I guess it says a lot about who Simon was…

Never flashy… Simon was Mr. Steady… Predictable… Unassuming… Just always there… Far smarter than he was often given credit for… Often over shadowed by his older brothers…

Dependable… Loyal… And full of love for everyone… Asking for nothing but love in return… Well, maybe some cookies, too…

Full of the qualities that define a good dog… And I guess that is the best complement one can give a good dog… That and the tears we shed upon his passing…

Stroking his head on the way to the vet and whispering in his ear that it was okay to let go… He walked into the doctor’s office… Sat on the floor and as a smile crossed his face he breathed his last… No needles… Just the smile…

I would like to think he was smiling because his brothers Riley and JJ were there to meet him…

While Riley is chasing Fifi and JJ his slow rabbits… Simon has found the big box of biscuits in the sky…

We’ll ship his ashes home to Idaho this spring and he’ll be laid to rest to watch beautiful sunsets beside big brother Riley…  

We love you and we miss you, Simon… RIP precious boy…



  

Saturday, December 24, 2016

A Man of Constant Quiet...

Funny... As I spend this Christmas Eve alone with Simon and the Damn Cat... The gusting desert wind is the only sound... The RV is rocking... Simon and the Damn Cat are sleeping like babies in a cradle... Peaceful quiet... Yet I never feel alone... Looking back I had the same peaceful quiet when I lived on Lake Ontario... It was all I ever wanted...
My mistake... Opening the door to someone who never respected my love for that quiet... Someone who needed to fill that quiet with the noise of constant drama and chaos...
Because she was afraid of what she'd hear in the quiet... Things she didn't want to hear...
It's ironic that the same noise of constant drama and chaos left everyone in it's wake feeling alone... It never really drowned out the sounds she didn't want to hear...
Never understanding those sounds she didn't want to hear came from deep inside her heart and mind... The noise of constant drama and chaos will never silence them...
The noise of constant drama and chaos only stole the peace of the people around her... 
Sadly, I can't help thinking that was the plan... Someone truly at peace doesn't feel the need to steal someone else's... 
I've found the peaceful quiet again... I like what I hear in the quiet... And I never feel alone...

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Happy Thanksgiving

OK... Much to be thankful for not just today, tomorrow or the next day... Everyday!!!
The boys and I have been on quite an adventure the last few years... Some of it good... Some of it hard... I won't call the hard times bad... We learned from both... We've been blessed by both...
Simon and I are now the "Last of the Moheathens" on this adventure and we've got a lot more adventure to live... That fact alone is something to be extremely thankful for...
Simon, Baby Girl and I will chill beside a campfire tonight and be as grateful as any other night... Just maybe thankfully thinking a little deeper than normal... I hope everyone else takes some time to do the same...
Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Deep Desert Thoughts...

Known a few of these... The last being the worst... Why??? She hid it the best... Wanted everyone to think she was joy to live with... Took a while to see through the chaos...



Love Bombing
Love bombing is a term used to describe the typical initial stages of a relationship with a narcissistic personality where the narcissist goes all out to impress their target with flattery, holidays, promises of a future together having the target believe that they have met their perfect partner, their soulmate.
Mirroring
A narcissist will mirror what they see in you from your mannerisms to your dress sense, your behavior and your likes and dislikes. They basically become just like you. 
Machinist... Comedian... Trucker... 
Just sayin'... Did the research...


Freedom...

Feeling abundantly thoughtful this morning... I certainly know I don't want or need anyone else's chaos and drama... #freedom






Sunday, October 23, 2016

Swing Low Sweet Chariot

Sunday 10/23/16

So… What’s life on the road really like??? Well, this trip has been full of adventure… The adventure these intrepid travelers started with was not what we had planned…

Heading south Wednesday we were greeted by a steel belted blow out of the left rear inner tire… Which also damaged the outer tire though not bad enough to keep us from limping off of I-15 south and to a tire store…

Two new tires later we were back on the road… Thankful it wasn’t worse… We didn’t die… But in need of a beer… We stopped for the night at a Salt Lake City VFW post… Only to find some additional surprises… Pieces of the steel belt had gone right through and were still imbedded in the floor of the RV… Looking back now I should have taken some pictures… I’ll get some pics of the holes from below and above tomorrow… I’ll also be calling the insurance company though who knows what they can do for me…

The pieces of tire and the shredded floor board have been cleaned up, but the holes are still there and strategically covered now to keep the cool night air out… Luckily they are not in a walk path forward and aft in the RV and thankfully more damage wasn’t done…

Our second night out (Thursday) we camped just east of Spanish Forks, Utah at Diamond Campground… It had been our scheduled first night stop… Nice quiet, but not the scenic Utah campground we had hoped for…

Heading southeast from there through Moab, UT… The scenery and countryside was beautiful and everything we had hoped for… But we drove right past Arches National Park and the surrounding campgrounds full of way too many people… Maybe another time… Maybe a different time of the year, but we wanted no part of the crowds…

South of Moab we found Wind Whistle Campground… Beautiful, quiet, scenic… it would have been great to stay there more than one night, but feeling the need to press on we broke camp again… Leaving Wind Whistle Campground in Utah and heading through Cortez in the southwest corner of Colorado and into New Mexico… Straight south through Navajo Land…

Planning a stop just east of Gallup, New Mexico only to get there and find the campgrounds closed… With the sun setting, sick of driving for the day and yes, more than a little annoyed… We pulled into a truck stop off of I-40 in Milan, NM… Surrounded by big rigs… Many of which left their diesels idling all night… 

Which once one is adjusted to the steady drone and the vibration left me with two thoughts…

Yes, shipmates… You guessed the first one… Sleeping through diesel ops… And in the words of Jimmy Buffett…

“Put in a quarter, turn out the light…
Magic Fingers makes you feel alright…
Feel alright, feel alright…
Magic finger makes you feel alright…”
                   -This Hotel Room

After driving way more than was planned yesterday… We drove only about an hour today and are camped in El Malpais at the Joe Skeen campground… A free BLM campground… With a seven day stay limit and a two mile walk to fill water jugs…

Not needing to arrive in Alamogordo for another week and only 260 miles from our destination… These intrepid travelers will spend a few days here collecting their thoughts and some rays… Well, Simon will sit in the shade… We already know his thoughts… Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner…

I had jokingly posted this Facebook status update a few weeks ago… “My mouth is singing Swing Low Sweet Chariot… #cottommouth”

An old negro spiritual about being set free from a life of slavery… I had one final thought before drifting off to sleep… The RV has become my “Sweet Chariot” freeing me from the slavery of a death sentence nuclear work schedule… Setting me free on the road to adventure…

Swing low, sweet chariot
Coming for to carry me home,
Swing low, sweet chariot,
Coming for to carry me home.
I looked over Jordan, and what did I see
Coming for to carry me home?
A band of angels coming after me,
Coming for to carry me home.
Sometimes I'm up, and sometimes I'm down,
(Coming for to carry me home)
But still my soul feels heavenly bound.
(Coming for to carry me home)
The brightest day that I can say,
(Coming for to carry me home)
When Jesus washed my sins away.
(Coming for to carry me home)
If I get there before you do,
(Coming for to carry me home)
I'll cut a hole and pull you through.
(Coming for to carry me home)
If you get there before I do,
(Coming for to carry me home)
Tell all my friends I'm coming too.
(Coming for to carry me home)
Swing low, sweet chariot
Coming for to carry me home,
Swing low, sweet chariot,
Coming for to carry me home.

Monday, October 17, 2016

My Private Idaho...

Well, it’s been exactly 6 weeks today that I left Leavenworth, WA… A week on the road through some awesome beautiful country… Mountains… Rivers… Waterfalls… and Forests… 

It’s exactly 5 weeks that I have been camped in Shelley, ID… It’s been a welcome respite from the rude kids and even ruder adults who frequented the Leavenworth KOA… 

Alone with Simon most of that time and now joined by the new addition to our family… The “Damned Cat” as Simon calls her… No that’s usually me calling her that…

We… No, I… Though I do run all my ideas past Simon… His input is invaluable… Anyway we (I) had a lot of time to think… Actually probably a little too much and a sign we probably should have gotten on the road again a little sooner… We (I) almost convinced myself and Simon that it might be a good idea to change our original plans and stay in Idaho…

After some long hard thought this past weekend… And weighing many options… Not the least of which is this storm… http://idahostatejournal.com/members/biggest-snowstorm-of-season-thus-far-bearing-down-on-southeast/article_5a24e4c6-6965-5f32-97a5-7f43adbd91d7.html

We (I) have decided to stick with our original plan and head to New Mexico for the winter… There’s a few places marked on the map that we’ll try to see along the way and we’ll post plenty of pictures… We could be leaving as early as tomorrow afternoon… Though Wednesday is more likely…

See you next spring, Idaho… For now… The adventure continues….