Saturday, December 24, 2016

A Man of Constant Quiet...

Funny... As I spend this Christmas Eve alone with Simon and the Damn Cat... The gusting desert wind is the only sound... The RV is rocking... Simon and the Damn Cat are sleeping like babies in a cradle... Peaceful quiet... Yet I never feel alone... Looking back I had the same peaceful quiet when I lived on Lake Ontario... It was all I ever wanted...
My mistake... Opening the door to someone who never respected my love for that quiet... Someone who needed to fill that quiet with the noise of constant drama and chaos...
Because she was afraid of what she'd hear in the quiet... Things she didn't want to hear...
It's ironic that the same noise of constant drama and chaos left everyone in it's wake feeling alone... It never really drowned out the sounds she didn't want to hear...
Never understanding those sounds she didn't want to hear came from deep inside her heart and mind... The noise of constant drama and chaos will never silence them...
The noise of constant drama and chaos only stole the peace of the people around her... 
Sadly, I can't help thinking that was the plan... Someone truly at peace doesn't feel the need to steal someone else's... 
I've found the peaceful quiet again... I like what I hear in the quiet... And I never feel alone...